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Soon To Be Absorbed

by Paul Sadler

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    Paul Sadler, vocalist and guitarist of UK based Progressive Metal act Spires, releases his debut solo album, featuring a myriad of styles, from progressive rock and metal through to folk tinged acoustic melancholy.

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1.
Leave me, forget me Free me from this cruel burden of love Though your fingers caress me, it's only skin Disconnected and washed of all feeling Spare me no anger, justify my intent And sever the cord that binds my aching wrist Sever the cord that ties me to life I make of my body an island off the edge of the world Though I know you'll set sail The seas will be far less forgiving than you Though land you may seek, only terror will you find
2.
The Fear 06:01
They're at the door again Too many fractions cause congestion of the whole In a rare moment of clarity my whisper screams “Just let them go”, but... Hammering my door again Leave me to my vacuous serenity Floating with the tide Every ripple hides a tsunami of 'should've been' (could've been, would've been) Cerebral staircase of Escher wraps around my skin This bubbling canvas of absurdity Oh for some peace again To silence this philosopher of platitudes So if I'm breathing underwater It's only to inhale the weight, to feel the shock of something real So I lay my jagged head On a pillow cut from diamonds and glass Reflecting every transgression, every stowaway With many a story to tell For every nightmare, for every cold, cold sweat For every twisted slice of dormancy, take me there... Oh to sleep again To silence this philosopher of nothingness So if I'm wading in my fever It's only to absorb the pain, to feel the shock of something real So in this place, my private chamber Are walls of shattered mirrors Refracting pieces of my skull And though I labour, no matter where I stand This perfect stranger, forever stares right back at me... Oh for release again To silence this philosopher of fallacies So if I'm drowning in reflections The only way to stem the tide is to forever shut my ears
3.
Though I strive, I still mould the world with an emperor's hands I remain the only vivid ruler of this lonely land Oh how your intrusion is such a burden on me, take it from me And yet I look so small in the reflection of your pupil Turn your gaze... Can there be seven billion centres of the universe? Each a portrayal of reality I cannot fold into my own Oh how I am lost within a distortion of 'me', a version of 'me' Am I just as liquid as the tears that feed your river And could I drown in someone else's dream? See how the darkness fades When severed from the roots of our illusion may our leaves entwine And even as my flowers wilt Forever bloom the seeds I'll never know Shattering the walls we build deep within our circuitry They hold us in our kingdom of the self, prolonging this delusion See how the darkness fades When severed from the roots of our illusion may our leaves entwine And even as my flowers wilt Forever bloom the seeds I'll never know See how perceptions change When softened in the furnace of existence and reality Oh how the moonlight shines On every single reading of the truth
4.
The Familiar 05:18
Though we may cast our villains to the other side of the world Though we may turn away from the demon that hides in the folds Still we must cast a shadow that stalks and devours It becomes an old familiar No-one else must see him, No-one else can walk in the fire Though we may travel to untold corners of paradise Though we may drown our senses in vast swathes of green, blue and gold We’ll never lose this beast hibernating in our DNA This black familiar No-one else must see him, No-one else can walk in the fire No-one else can banish this devil that hides in the mirror Though we flee in travels in This blood that flows under the skin Though we may fly into the sun The beast resides in everyone After all has come to pass This masquerade can never last As long as earth remains a sphere You never will outrun your fears… Until the end No-one must unpeel the flesh No-one must remove this cold neutrality It’s easier to externalise this creature than reveal our own duality Everyone can see him, Everyone is walking in my fire No-one else can banish this devil that grins in the mirror Though we flee in travels in This blood that flows under the skin Though we may fly into the sun The beast resides in everyone After all has come to pass This masquerade can never last As long as earth remains a sphere You never will outrun your fears Onwards to eternity, we cast our souls into the sea But left to dry under the sun The beast returns to everyone… Until we die
5.
Anyway 06:19
A life in coldest grey can still be warmed in deepest blue So to the being that can’t give credence to itself Just ride on the tempest and trust that the world Will carry you back to yourself And to a forest floor A dying ember is a promise of new life So if in the witching hour your devils start to sing Uncover your ears, let the harmonies in And pray for the fire to begin And anyway, though we fear the turning of the hands of time Another day, when the storm has cast you aside will you long for the rain to wash you away When looking to the ground Without a shadow would we ever feel the sun So if your ship is driven by the raging winds Take leave of the helm, for the land that you seek Is ever an ocean away And anyway…. So let the deluge in, and float away
6.
Though my thoughts may bathe in deepest black Under the sunlight the tides march gold on blue Though my cells may grow and spread their cancer Over tectonic murmurs the mountains still steal from the sky And if I depart... Still the universe will sing, heedless of my absence So dance within this cascade of eternally perpetuating rhythms That flow though us all Though the sun may collapse and swallow the oceans Somewhere in the cosmos a star is born to little parade And when we depart... Still the universe will sing, heedless of our absence So dance within this cascade of eternally perpetuating rhythms That level us all Though the earth may shake, lie down have no despair It will be over in a lifetime So though you may tremble, remember When you depart... Still the universe will sing, heedless of your absence So dance within this cascade of eternally perpetuating rhythms Take comfort in the meaningless echoes of your soul You are just a wave passing through, soon to be absorbed
7.
Through my window The world outside pushing ever inwards Oh these fibres that I weave How quickly they unravel So I dig myself further in Is there no poetry within? How I crave the sun If just to burn and purify This outer layer of reality And maybe scourge the rest of me If there really is a 'me' Or just the 'he' of someone else And so is a stale end the only way to start afresh And Oh How I cling to this liberating, cynical refrain And if I loose the will to see this life in all it's colours From grey to black, will I paint in shades of imagined lands? Though I would've fled so long ago There still remains a shimmering reward Lying buried in the ruins of a troubled life A wasted life Beyond the walls of this uncertainty Lies a morbid fear of black eternity And so I choose this fragile reverie Another time One final time So I dig myself further in There is no poetry within And so is a stale end the only way to start afresh And Oh How I cling to this liberating, cynical refrain And if I loose the will to see this life in all it's colours From white to black, will I paint in shades of grey
8.
Every dark hallway still hides a retreat A forbidden door to oblivion's crutch Though scarcely ajar I can still perceive A blanket of grey through a portal of pain So take all my struggles, and wrap them in silk And heal me, heal me with promises Though I concede I may never step through One foot on the threshold is ample reward The light through the crack still illuminates The passageway back to a life I once knew Yet to flee from the knowledge of hope beyond life Would bury me, bury me And if I fall, oh well Gravity force my hand Do what you will The cold light of day and I'm still to retire Eternity waits yet I squander my time All palliative exits evaporate Bar the black hole at the end of the hall So take all my courage, and wrap it in shame And wait for me, wait for me infinity
9.
Deference 07:09
Long ago, seemed life was drifting from the edge Towards the centre of all things, to never know the great unknown But this eternity we seek can only ever last a lifetime This crystal ball it speaks to all, and only ever will reveal...the end So what am I, but that which feels its own decay And so I think therefore I am, therefore I know I will not always be So this eternity we seek, this play of ever changing roles Will it dissolve if unperceived? Or even flicker in the breeze So who am I to rage against the tides of fate Compelling, murderous and pure, this angel driven by indifference Yet she smothers me and whispers... “This eternity you seek, has always been and always will be, Life is a novel unresolved, so let another turn the page”

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Paul Sadler, vocalist and guitarist of UK based Progressive Metal act Spires, releases his debut solo album, featuring a myriad of styles, from progressive rock and metal through to folk tinged acoustic melancholy.

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released December 1, 2020

Paul Sadler - Vocals, all guitars, keyboards
Alex Jolley - Fretless bass
Tom Rice – Drums

Guest musicians:
Raphael Weinroth-Browne – Cello on tracks 1, 4, 5, 6, 7 & 9
Ndrew Allmark – Violin on tracks 1, 4, 5, 6 & 7

All songs written by Paul Sadler
Produced, engineered and mixed by Paul Sadler
Mastered by Lee Calpee
All artwork and layout by Daniella Morrison
Drums recorded @ NoiseBoy Studios, Salford, with expert assistance from Chris Taylor
Everything else recorded at Barely Even a Studio Studios, Manchester

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Paul Sadler, vocalist and guitarist of UK based Prog Metal band Spires releases his debut solo album. With a host of world class musicians, and a myriad of varying styles, from metal to folk and lots in between.

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