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Though Land You May Seek
02:37
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Leave me, forget me
Free me from this cruel burden of love
Though your fingers caress me, it's only skin
Disconnected and washed of all feeling
Spare me no anger, justify my intent
And sever the cord that binds my aching wrist
Sever the cord that ties me to life
I make of my body an island off the edge of the world
Though I know you'll set sail
The seas will be far less forgiving than you
Though land you may seek, only terror will you find
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2. |
The Fear
06:01
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They're at the door again
Too many fractions cause congestion of the whole
In a rare moment of clarity my whisper screams
“Just let them go”, but...
Hammering my door again
Leave me to my vacuous serenity
Floating with the tide
Every ripple hides a tsunami of 'should've been' (could've been, would've been)
Cerebral staircase of Escher wraps around my skin
This bubbling canvas of absurdity
Oh for some peace again
To silence this philosopher of platitudes
So if I'm breathing underwater
It's only to inhale the weight, to feel the shock of something real
So I lay my jagged head
On a pillow cut from diamonds and glass
Reflecting every transgression, every stowaway
With many a story to tell
For every nightmare, for every cold, cold sweat
For every twisted slice of dormancy, take me there...
Oh to sleep again
To silence this philosopher of nothingness
So if I'm wading in my fever
It's only to absorb the pain, to feel the shock of something real
So in this place, my private chamber
Are walls of shattered mirrors
Refracting pieces of my skull
And though I labour, no matter where I stand
This perfect stranger, forever stares right back at me...
Oh for release again
To silence this philosopher of fallacies
So if I'm drowning in reflections
The only way to stem the tide is to forever shut my ears
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3. |
Sketches of Nothing
07:10
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Though I strive, I still mould the world with an emperor's hands
I remain the only vivid ruler of this lonely land
Oh how your intrusion is such a burden on me, take it from me
And yet I look so small in the reflection of your pupil
Turn your gaze...
Can there be seven billion centres of the universe?
Each a portrayal of reality I cannot fold into my own
Oh how I am lost within a distortion of 'me', a version of 'me'
Am I just as liquid as the tears that feed your river
And could I drown in someone else's dream?
See how the darkness fades
When severed from the roots of our illusion may our leaves entwine
And even as my flowers wilt
Forever bloom the seeds I'll never know
Shattering the walls we build deep within our circuitry
They hold us in our kingdom of the self, prolonging this delusion
See how the darkness fades
When severed from the roots of our illusion may our leaves entwine
And even as my flowers wilt
Forever bloom the seeds I'll never know
See how perceptions change
When softened in the furnace of existence and reality
Oh how the moonlight shines
On every single reading of the truth
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4. |
The Familiar
05:18
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Though we may cast our villains to the other side of the world
Though we may turn away from the demon that hides in the folds
Still we must cast a shadow that stalks and devours
It becomes an old familiar
No-one else must see him,
No-one else can walk in the fire
Though we may travel to untold corners of paradise
Though we may drown our senses in vast swathes of green, blue and gold
We’ll never lose this beast hibernating in our DNA
This black familiar
No-one else must see him,
No-one else can walk in the fire
No-one else can banish this devil that hides in the mirror
Though we flee in travels in
This blood that flows under the skin
Though we may fly into the sun
The beast resides in everyone
After all has come to pass
This masquerade can never last
As long as earth remains a sphere
You never will outrun your fears…
Until the end
No-one must unpeel the flesh
No-one must remove this cold neutrality
It’s easier to externalise this creature than reveal our own duality
Everyone can see him,
Everyone is walking in my fire
No-one else can banish this devil that grins in the mirror
Though we flee in travels in
This blood that flows under the skin
Though we may fly into the sun
The beast resides in everyone
After all has come to pass
This masquerade can never last
As long as earth remains a sphere
You never will outrun your fears
Onwards to eternity, we cast our souls into the sea
But left to dry under the sun
The beast returns to everyone…
Until we die
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5. |
Anyway
06:19
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A life in coldest grey can still be warmed in deepest blue
So to the being that can’t give credence to itself
Just ride on the tempest and trust that the world
Will carry you back to yourself
And to a forest floor
A dying ember is a promise of new life
So if in the witching hour your devils start to sing
Uncover your ears, let the harmonies in
And pray for the fire to begin
And anyway, though we fear the turning of the hands of time
Another day, when the storm has cast you aside will you long for the rain to wash you away
When looking to the ground
Without a shadow would we ever feel the sun
So if your ship is driven by the raging winds
Take leave of the helm, for the land that you seek
Is ever an ocean away
And anyway….
So let the deluge in, and float away
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6. |
Soon To Be Absorbed
04:45
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Though my thoughts may bathe in deepest black
Under the sunlight the tides march gold on blue
Though my cells may grow and spread their cancer
Over tectonic murmurs the mountains still steal from the sky
And if I depart...
Still the universe will sing, heedless of my absence
So dance within this cascade of eternally perpetuating rhythms
That flow though us all
Though the sun may collapse and swallow the oceans
Somewhere in the cosmos a star is born to little parade
And when we depart...
Still the universe will sing, heedless of our absence
So dance within this cascade of eternally perpetuating rhythms
That level us all
Though the earth may shake, lie down have no despair
It will be over in a lifetime
So though you may tremble, remember
When you depart...
Still the universe will sing, heedless of your absence
So dance within this cascade of eternally perpetuating rhythms
Take comfort in the meaningless echoes of your soul
You are just a wave passing through, soon to be absorbed
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7. |
From Grey To Black
06:20
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Through my window
The world outside pushing ever inwards
Oh these fibres that I weave
How quickly they unravel
So I dig myself further in
Is there no poetry within?
How I crave the sun
If just to burn and purify
This outer layer of reality
And maybe scourge the rest of me
If there really is a 'me'
Or just the 'he' of someone else
And so is a stale end the only way to start afresh
And Oh How I cling to this liberating, cynical refrain
And if I loose the will to see this life in all it's colours
From grey to black, will I paint in shades of imagined lands?
Though I would've fled so long ago
There still remains a shimmering reward
Lying buried in the ruins of a troubled life
A wasted life
Beyond the walls of this uncertainty
Lies a morbid fear of black eternity
And so I choose this fragile reverie
Another time
One final time
So I dig myself further in
There is no poetry within
And so is a stale end the only way to start afresh
And Oh How I cling to this liberating, cynical refrain
And if I loose the will to see this life in all it's colours
From white to black, will I paint in shades of grey
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8. |
Oblivion's Crutch
05:36
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Every dark hallway still hides a retreat
A forbidden door to oblivion's crutch
Though scarcely ajar I can still perceive
A blanket of grey through a portal of pain
So take all my struggles, and wrap them in silk
And heal me, heal me with promises
Though I concede I may never step through
One foot on the threshold is ample reward
The light through the crack still illuminates
The passageway back to a life I once knew
Yet to flee from the knowledge of hope beyond life
Would bury me, bury me
And if I fall, oh well
Gravity force my hand
Do what you will
The cold light of day and I'm still to retire
Eternity waits yet I squander my time
All palliative exits evaporate
Bar the black hole at the end of the hall
So take all my courage, and wrap it in shame
And wait for me, wait for me infinity
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9. |
Deference
07:09
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Long ago, seemed life was drifting from the edge
Towards the centre of all things, to never know the great unknown
But this eternity we seek can only ever last a lifetime
This crystal ball it speaks to all, and only ever will reveal...the end
So what am I, but that which feels its own decay
And so I think therefore I am, therefore I know I will not always be
So this eternity we seek, this play of ever changing roles
Will it dissolve if unperceived? Or even flicker in the breeze
So who am I to rage against the tides of fate
Compelling, murderous and pure, this angel driven by indifference
Yet she smothers me and whispers...
“This eternity you seek, has always been and always will be,
Life is a novel unresolved, so let another turn the page”
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Paul Sadler Manchester, UK
Paul Sadler, vocalist and guitarist of UK based Prog Metal band Spires releases his debut solo album. With a host of world class musicians, and a myriad of varying styles, from metal to folk and lots in between.
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